February 2012
20 posts
Making Peace
Now we are husband and wife of one year, it is time to make peace with all the things that stick in my throat.
That he fucked his cousin a few years ago when they were horny teenagers at the beach.
For all the stupid petty shit that has come between us over the last year.
For Truman.
For everything.
“Why can’t you be alone without Yoko?
“I can be, but I don’t wish to be.
There...”
– John Lennon (1971 Rolling Stones Interview)
January 2012
11 posts
: Mantra of the Day: You Are the Source of Your... →
Sure it’s nice to have someone to love and who loves you. It’s nice to live in abundance, peace and joy. But don’t let others and external materialities be the conditions for your happiness. Because in truth, no-one or nothing can bring you happiness if you don’t allow it for yourself first.
You are the source of your own joy, abundance, peace and happiness.
“I will remember the kisses, our lips raw with love,
and how you gave me...”
– Charles Bukowski (via rawcolorado)
He Sleeps in the Bed Next to Me
Snoring.
He’s meaner and more disrespectful every day. He resents me. I can see it in his eyes.
I let the air in. Out. Nothing feels better. Everything still feels fucked up, bruised, painful. He wakes me up at 4am, thrashing, complaining. Half asleep and half stupid from working till 11, I try to help. He is rude. I get offended and move to the floor. Things digress.
I know what...
December 2011
7 posts
“There was so much sadness in everything, even when things worked.”
– Charles Bukowski (via aeloquence)
November 2011
14 posts
I am so fucking close to had it
With these whole fucking lot
I just don’t know if I can fucking take it anymore
Siting, Waiting, Wishing
I was more patient. That you where here with me. That I was there with you.
That I knew for sure you are safe and sound.
That you came home 10 hours ago so we could have had time for us today.
That I didn’t sit here, crying, day after day night after night! It o so painful I cant even look at the computer as I write this. God I miss you. There is no easy way. I need you. Why do you...
You know that feeling?
When you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom?
Then things get unbelievably, twistedly, ridiculously worse?
Then I want someone to take your Valium & weed away.
That’s where I’m at.
I wish there was an ‘off’ switch for this.
Ananda Shankar: Raghupati
I love this so much.
God, I miss you so much.
I need you so bad.
Please come back soon.
Every day is agonizing.